Last night was weird. I knew Obama would lose, and I knew there would be no news about this until this morning, but I couldn't keep myself from tuning the AM radio to constant coverage and pressing the reload button on the Caucus blog. All night. Like a meditation. Even though there was no news. Even though many of the commenters on the Caucus blog are, I think, mildly retarded.
It's a scary time. I have never seen a presidential race mean so much and be so unreal at the same time.
As a strong woman myself, I have to admit that watching the larger tide turn against Clinton makes my teeth gnash together. I hate being on the subway and hearing hipster kids calling her a "Ho" while they make gestures that allude to doing her from behind. It makes me feel bad for their sex lives that they have to think about power in such a strange, indirect way.
I hate the way she's getting labelled "emotional."
I hate that Camille Paglia has weighed in about what a bad feminist Clinton is. Even though she's co-opted this one, I hate that we have to keep calling her Hillary. While I would love it if she dropped out of the race, I do think that she has a (very slight) chance of winning, and that it is therefore ludicrous to ask her to quit for the sake of the party.
But I really really really reallyreallyreally wanted Obama to win.
I'd rather live in an issue-based world, in which Clinton was judged on her merits, or lack thereof. Her campaign is largely Rovian, and her personal style is increasingly Bushian. That presents a real credibility problem. She doesn't have enough money to pay her debtors. I don't like her healthcare plan because it forces too much and achieves too little at the same time. This Iran talk is...
...well, that part actually sounded shrill and emotional to me. And Bill needs to be muzzled.
I like Obama's strategy moving forward, which seems to be Focus on McCain. I hope it works, because he's right. McCain is going to keep us in Iraq forever and bring on another Great Depression in the process if he manages to win. That actual problem needs to be defined--the circus shit is making me feel like a lobster in the pot.